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Hike To The Lake: How the 2016 Schweibenalp Retreat Helped One Woman Connect to the Joy Within

The following is a testimonial written by Barbara Vencelj, who attended our 2016 retreat in Schweibenalp, Switzerland. Barbara shares about how the retreat helped her connect with herself, nature and her community. 

During our six-day retreat in Schweibenalp in October of 2016, we had a wonderful time. We were practicing movements, breathing, witnessing exercises and learning energy passes to activate and open the body and heart and fully express heartfelt intention.

Together, we shared days in a beautiful environment in nature in the mountains above the lake, connected with the universe and earth, and with each other. We shared nourishing meals and glistened with life. My heart was singing in celebration of life. I was filled with joy seeing all the colors and thinking about the abundance that life on earth offers.

 We also shared an unforgettable walk towards the lake in the mountains. It was a bright and clear morning with a crisp, blue sky and white clouds wandering around. Mist hovered above the lake. We walked on meadows above the big lake into the woods. I remember how the sun shone through the trees. The path was nice and smooth. I walked with ease. I felt connected to the mother earth and connected in breath, with my energy body and my physical body.  Silence gently stopped my inner dialogue and I was one with the universe. 

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retreatI remember walking with Aerin, holding for hands and chatting like old friends. Oh how we laughed! I was so happy. It’s such a nice feeling to hike with people you love. The air was cold and Aerin was cold. She let me borrow her green gloves! That made me even happier.

Along the path to the lake, there were many friendly wooden sculptures of people and animals that inspired and brought joy to me.

After an hour and a half, we reached the lake, the green eye of the mountain, softly reflecting the mountains and the trees, gathering the heart of the mountain spirits in the silence.

We gathered on the shore of the lake, experiencing the silence and peace. Above the lake mountains, the sun rose high above us and shined down, like a dear friend sending shiny laser-like beams through the clouds. It looked truly magical. We all felt blessed to be a part of nature and the universe so, we sang songs of joy and gratefulness, celebrating this beautiful life. 

retreatIt was truly a beautiful and unforgettable hike, and I am gratefully looking forward to returning to the mountains again.

-Barbara Vencelj

Barbara is a medical doctor, and part of an outdoor emergency rescue team in the mountains of Slovenia

 

About Our 2017 Retreat In  Schweibenalp, Switzerland

You can experience joy, peace, connection and community in Schweibenalp, Switzerland just like Barbara did. We will return to Schweibenalp for a 4-day retreat October 26th – 29th for another incredible weekend learning to unlock the seven gates to dreaming. Learn more about the retreat here! We cannot wait to connect with you.
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The Spiral of My Life – Pablo Baynon on the Path with Heart

The spiral of my life began in a full-blown social uprising. I was in my mother’s womb when the police detained her with others in a protest. My mother also used to sing before I was born; my maternal grandfather played the piano while my grandmother made world maps and took care of a store. My father was a laborer at that time, like my paternal grandfather who was a lathe operator; my grandmother was the daughter of Patagonia farmers. At an early age, I experienced the last military dictatorship in Argentina. My parents tried to keep us away from the horror that they were living, but I remember the fear they expressed with their eyes and my own fear of everyone who seemed menacing.

Fortunately I lived in a neighborhood where a lot of children played. We also drew, sang and performed plays with my siblings and cousins. All of the foregoing shaped my passion and purpose in this world. Another element came in also that passed unnoticed for many years. In the summer school that I attended with other children, one hot afternoon they took us for a walk to a small wooden bridge over a stream. The teachers were chatting among themselves a few yards away when the comments of the little ones caught my attention. I looked toward where they were pointing and saw something that I still cannot distinguish from a dream; in the muddy ravine of the stream, carved in the black earth, was a large face with thick lips, wide nose and two brilliant carmine red stones in the sockets of both eyes. I contemplated the image in silence and heard someone saying to the children that the face was made by the “Indians,” that if a rock were thrown at it, this would bring rain.

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I was developing my interest in drawing, sports, making songs and also participation in politics. When I was invited to play in a rock band, I felt that at last I had a place in the world. However, something wasn’t working. Some years later my music friends had children or their work required all their time. It was then that a friend loaned me A Separate Reality by Carlos Castaneda. When I finished the book, I went out to the street like always, but for the first time, I walked in compete silence. And it was while taking such a walk some time afterward that I made the decision to follow the “path with heart.” I understood what it was that wasn’t working for me in relation to music. What I was really looking for was a way to feel safe and recognized. I wanted to be like the famous musicians. In order to follow the new path, I had to make an arrangement: From then on, music would be my traveling companion and I would sing for whoever wanted to listen.

la quemadaTo follow the path with heart, what would be better than to travel to Mexico! Moreover, I would see whether I could take care of myself alone. I corroborated in the land of Mexico the immense heritage of ancient wisdom, still expressed in their infinite culture. However, little by little I lost my impetus to make the trip, and found myself exhausted by daily life and a heartbreak. Walking one afternoon, the idea came to me that I should meet new people. That night I encountered a practitioner of the energy passes, who took me to a practice the next day. There I met my wife.

The energy passes gave me an enormous push and my beloved proposed that we go to Michoacan to live on a farm. But still… I was afraid. I decided to take a walk in the mountains in order to make a big decision. In the train station, a man who was walking beside me gave me a magazine. A sign! But no matter how much I read the copy, I couldn’t find anything that would resolve my doubts. Actually, I didn’t really know what I wanted to make of my life. For several years of ups and downs, I lived this purpose with my companion, but I still had the sensation of doubt. I could have saved myself a lot of unpleasantness and enjoyed that period better if I had paid more attention to the magazine that the mysterious man gave me. I had kept it and looked through it years after: On the inside cover there was an enormous photograph of the monarch butterflies, the symbol of Michoacan!

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13147945_10154784442769008_684090214_oThen the farm moved to the province of Cordoba, Argentina. During a stalking exercise, when we were asked to find the stone that we still have in our heart, I closed my eyes and relived the terror of the time of the dictatorship in the country. But I also saw the image of my grandmothers with white handkerchiefs who, with the aid of institutions, achieved the goal that these people who terrorized me received their just reward. I decided to leave this fear behind.

My lineage, the face carved in the muddy ravine, the music, the energy passes, the love for my fellow man, my beloved… everything strung together in the spiral of this life.

The Sword Form, performed by Pablo Baynon

Teaching BE: Sharing Magical Moments

Our Community: Luis Alonso shares his experience of teaching BE

Luis reflects on a Being Energy class he just taught to a group of students.

The experience of transmitting energy passes is very pleasant and mysterious.

I always am in wonder at the vibration generated in the group, as well as the possibility of opening, through practice, a space for inner silence. I remain hopeful that the people who attend my classes achieve that cubic centimeter of chance that don Genaro talked about—that second of silence that allows you to stop the world and change your point of view.

Two hours of class can seem like a short time or a long time. It depends on your perspective.

Luis class standingOne second of intensity may be sufficient to turn the wheel of time. Inevitably, I link my teaching experiences with the Being Energy workshop on the Wheel of Time, which made a big impression on me. This choice of holding or moving body tension, of letting ego control you or finding freedom and relaxation spirit.

I hope that people who attended this class came away with the idea that it is possible to move with consciousness and freedom, that energy passes are not mechanical movements, but life and energy in expression.

A Path Unfolds: Lirio’s Story

Hello. I am Tania Quiroz, known as Lirio Díaz, and I live in Xalapa, in the State of Veracruz, Mexico.

I was born in Mexico City and lived there for many years, which is why it is a place that I love and go back to every chance I get.

I have lived in Xalapa for several years. It is a town that embraced me and allowed me to start building dreams and projects that I had envisioned for a long time, which started growing once I came here. This is a beautiful city that lies among mountains, with plenty of green areas.

Once, when I was a child, I was next to my small bookshelf and I figured that I would love to have lots of books around me. Just picturing this filled me with joy. It made me feel that I had company and shelter. It was one of the first times that I felt the touch of that energy outside of us that enables you to dream, imagine, and that clears the way before you.

Lirio_Xalapa_1Since I was in elementary school, and all the way through high school, I always felt connected with the stories in the books—fiction in particular—and it was easy for me to discuss their contents with others.

It was also in high school that I read Carlos Castaneda’s books, and they had a strong impact on me. It was like saying, “Of course! That’s it!” and feeling relieved and happy about something being proved that you knew inside, but which you could not voice. That something, to me, was to feel that life had a purpose and that it is worth living.

From that moment on, I applied in my daily life what I had understood from the books. I can say that it always brought a sense of more calm and confidence to my actions. When I learned the energy movements, years later, I committed to practicing them with great delight.

Lirio_and_StudentsBack to my dreams and projects, it was thanks to a dear friend, who suggested that I started giving workshops about short stories for children and teenagers, that reading was revealed to me as a means to share with others, as well as a source of income.

I enjoyed teaching workshops for children. I learned much from them; from their innocence, their intelligence, creativity and sense of humor.

I graduated as a psychologist, and wrote a paper about reading as a support tool for teenagers. My idea was to keep offering these workshops in schools, but something did not fit entirely in that plan.

It was then when I attended my first Being Energy workshop in Teotihuacan, and I also took the Module 1 Teacher Training. There I found the energy needed for the project that I really wanted: teaching self-improvement classes in which I included physical movements performed with awareness, reading and psychology. Movement was the missing piece in the puzzle, and once I realized it, I could not imagine a full session without it.

Lirio_MovementThis project is still being nourished by the support network that Being Energy represents. I learned a lot from teaching online classes, and my understanding of the movements and the body was grounded in a deeper way. I also found myself experiencing great physical and emotional well-being.

Taking the leap to the online platform was also a great opportunity, because now there’s a big flow of information going through it, and more people are coming to it. It is the platform that I currently use most to teach my Being Energy and self-improvement classes (via Skype).

Lirio_ThankYouI am very grateful to Aerin and Miles and to the entire Being Energy community for opening this wonderful path of learning, well-being and awareness.

Thank you for reading my story!
Lirio

A Story of Confidence: Dr. Barbara Vencelj and BE

Note: Barbara will teach with us in Amsterdam! We are grateful to have her join us for our October workshops there, where she will be available to help you integrate your health issues and concerns with the tools you learn in the workshop.

This is my story of confidence. It revealed itself during the BE workshop in Italy this spring and now I am sharing it with you dear reader. I admit to having the same fear and lack of confidence that this story is about while writing this, but when I connect with the earth supporting me and sky inspiring me, I can let the words flow, and the story tell itself.

I am happy to feel aligned with confidence in my life—most of the time. I feel safe to travel around, admire the magical world and connect with other people, animals, water, mountains, trees and things I encounter along the way, and to breathe in and out freely. This feeling of safety and being accepted comes from my family, and I’ve also found it from the earth, as it supports me in every step I make, and the sky and stars that keep drawing out my dreams.

bv_antelopeIf I close my eyes and think of confidence, an image of my father pops out. His working hands—strong brownish hands—and a smile on his face, he seemed able to tackle any task around the house and garden you can imagine. He fixed things with an ease and joy that was contagious. Whenever something broke—car, bike, washing machine, fence, roof, you name it—he could mend it. If there was a mathematical task, if a neighbor, a friend, mum, my brother or I needed a hand, he was there. With a sparkle in his eyes and light around of focused attention, he would accomplished his task, confidently and with sobriety. It was like something bigger supported him. Earth and sky.

I guess some of this confidence and kindness came to me through him.

bv_mountainsI chose to become a medical doctor, not really knowing why. I naturally want to help others in need. When I was a kid, if another kid was injured when we were playing, I cleaned and bandaged the wound and gave them a hug. I could do it with ease and love at the same time. I wasn’t afraid of seeing blood and damaged tissues. I could help with a confidence and calmness I cannot explain. That is why I became an emergency doctor, so that I could help and be with people in the worst moments, to act fast, with sobriety and calm to help a person out of danger. My intent, beyond offering treatment, is to mostly give comfort to others and be present as kind and loving human by their side… to hold their hand, listen, smile, and maybe help take the fear away in the scary environment of an ambulance or helicopter.

After ten years of being an emergency doctor, I realize that this is my deeper purpose…not only to ease pain, treat a wounded body and resuscitate hearts, but to give a smile, hold a person in one of their worst moments, give affection in the dark night and acknowledge and salute the spirit in a wounded or dying body—to see the spirit of a person and be beside them…that is my purpose. Today I feel the support of mother Earth and I know infinity holds me. It is my purpose. I am an expression of infinity, one who helps others to feel better, one who connects with others in a supportive, kind and loving way.

bv_helicopterConfidence: A key of wellbeing. One aspect of this inside of me is the feeling that I can act with sobriety in every situation. I studied and practiced and trained for years to acquire medical knowledge and skills. Most of the books I read are medical books, and I dedicate a lot of time to study. It brings me joy.

About five years, I joined Being Energy. Connecting with Aerin and Miles and the family of BE people, my perspective widened, and my awareness grows. Like a tree, rooted in the earth that listens to the stars, aligned with the intent of infinity. I have found out that my purpose and confidence is not a matter of my ego, but something bigger, living inside and outside of me. I feel that infinity holds and the earth supports me. Being confident is to be aligned with the force that moves the world around us, and to acquiesce to what my come.

Now every time we rush in an ambulance or helicopter to the scene of an accident, I consciously inhale deeply through my feet upward for support from the earth, and open my heart and crown to align with the universe…and I pray to do it right and well and acquiesce and let infinity hold us.

bv_energy_passIts hardest thing of all for me and also for other doctors is to take care of and to resuscitate a seriously ill or injured child. The immense stress and responsibility and fear of losing a child is scary and heavy.

A child is not just a small adult from the medical point of view. A child has a different physiology, different size and weight, different dosage of medicine…and as a doctor, you must be prepared, but there are some things that it isn’t possible to prepare for, and the fear of being responsible for a child’s life is so big that something bigger has to support it. I am here to do the best I know how, to do it in loving way and to be open for support.

It was an early Sunday afternoon on an ordinary busy day in our emergency department, when we got a call that one-and-a-half-year-old toddler had fallen from a second-story window and was laying on the road without signs of life. I felt a shiver go down my spine.

Fear squeezed my heart and brain for a moment… I remember as we were driving to the scene, I started praying for the child. I breathed in the breath from the earth, collecting confidence from the earth and let it travel through my body, through my lover discs to the heart and up to the brain. The breathing brings me to the here and now, and helps me connect to the feeling of trust and confidence. A trust in the universe and in something much bigger and a trust that it all will be ok, as it has to be. As we were driving to the child, something came to calm my mind and heart so that I could easily concentrate on things like calculating the child’s weight, proper dosages of medicine, etc.

bv_emergency_crewWe arrived at the scene, and I jumped out of car to the child lying on the ground. This moment was a moment of heightened awareness; it felt like there was a bubble of silence around me and the child,. I didn’t notice the noise of the crowd gathering around us or anything else; we were in a cocoon of light. The world stopped for the moment, and I saw the child breathing in and out, his heart still beating…he is alive…

Feelings of confidence and affection, acknowledgement of fear and trust all became very present at that moment. In the next minutes as we resuscitated the child, I felt the alignment of the universe and the intent that this child is going to live. We were so present, efficient, and the action went with ease and fluidity… we stabilized the child and took him to the hospital… And the child lived.

Thank you,
Barbara Vencelj

Change, Release and Free Your Story: Teaching on the Path with Heart

As a BE teacher, I often have to face all of my fears and insecurities when I begin to plan a class. I find myself asking: Who am I to be offering instruction to others in something so elusive and difficult to talk about as turning the wheel of time? How do we create a pause in the seemingly unceasing repetition of our own stories? How can I honestly stand before others when I really don’t understand anything myself?

Carlos Castaneda used to say that no one “understands” anything. A real understanding would require going behind or beyond the assumptions on which all attempts at understanding are based—something that we can never do because at the base of everything is pure mystery, the unknowable. It’s like the child who responds to every step of an adult’s explanation with “Why?” until finally his parent has to tell him that there is no “why” for some questions. However, even without understanding anything, we can handle and enjoy life and the world perfectly well; we can function wonderfully.

Tom Detail BE Energy PassWhen I guide Being Energy classes or teach it to others, my only option is to suspend my own story—which includes plenty of self doubts about handling something that can’t be reduced to logic or reason—and let the spirit channel through me, even if only for a while. Under the pressure of my commitment to present something, I have to relax at some point and let ideas flow—what to emphasize, how to express it, what sequences of movements to do—and then connect to the energetic feeling that the movements and practices create. This is especially true when presenting the Code or guiding a recapitulation session. It is a complete mystery why the movements of the Code silence the mind, but I do experience that silence and I feel it as a direct connection between me and those who I am guiding, even when we are on different parts of the globe, communicating by Internet but also through our energetic link.

Recapitulating in a group is even more mysterious. If each one of us is reviewing his own distinct life experiences, what is the value of pursuing this as a group or class activity? For one thing, we are conditioned to the discipline of a schedule and an agreement to meet together, so the class format helps us take that initial step—just do it! Beyond this practical advantage, the group format helps create and reinforce a certain mood—of silence, of courage and determination to face ourselves without judgment. The suspending of judgment also applies to the act of recapitulation itself. Even when nothing comes to us as an experience worthy of recapitulation, we accept this without self-criticism and with a mood of curiosity and wonder. Even the most seemingly mundane experience we happen to remember can lead to discovery and self-knowledge.

Tom TeachingThe challenge of integrating our innermost core, the essence of our being, with our behavior and choices is not a goal against which we judge ourselves as winners or losers. It is a path, a process that continues throughout our lives. Everyone has doubts, and each of us loses the feeling of fluid energy and silence over and over. However, if we have tasted this energy and silence, we know how to find it and keep coming back, trying to go deeper and maintain this position longer.
By deciding to teach, you are committing yourself. You are choosing to put yourself on the line and rally your energy each time you lead others, even though you have no guarantees that you will succeed. When a class approaches and you feel lost, the commitment comes to your aid. It focuses your attention and activates your intent so that you can genuinely connect to the inexhaustible source of life and creativity. You stand before others not knowing exactly what you will say, but with a feeling of certainty that expresses itself in your voice, your eyes and your movements. And in that moment you have changed your story—you are someone or something else, an expression of the infinite.

What a great gift is this opportunity to share beauty of spirit with others!

Tom Reavley

Note: You won’t want to miss Being Energy’s BE Skilled! workshops and training programs this fall. Dive in on September 26th for Turning the Wheel of Time and on November 7th for The Crack Between the Worlds!

Advanced registration required.

We’d love to see you there.

Aerin and Miles

BE in Bulgaria!

Hello Friends,

I am writing to you to let you know about our most recent workshop in Bulgaria. I can say that it was the most successful event led by BE instructors in Bulgaria. We were able to procure a beautiful event site, which served good food at a reasonable price of 45 EUR for the workshop, accommodation and full board. Have you heard of such a price? It is possible here. And half of the price covered the workshop, which was a normal hourly rate for yoga studios here.
We are, of course, just beginning on our path as BE Instructors in Bulgaria, so we did not ask for a higher price. Patience. Our group consisted of 12 practitioners plus the two Being Energy Instructors, Sergey Velev and me.

Let me say a little about the event site. It is a little rustic, but a very pleasant place in a small town with mineral springs. It is actually a small ceramic factory where there is a studio for designing different figures from clay. Every year the factory holds seminars for children, which gives them the opportunity to work with their hands in the studio. They also hold seminars for different kinds of artists—painters, sculptors, etc. There are beautiful pieces of art all around the studio that were made during these seminars.

Participants 1We had the whole place for the weekend, and we ate meals cooked especially for us, based on a menu we provided to them.

The mood was heartfelt and sincere; everybody worked hard and got the best for themselves from the event. There were six newcomers who expressed excitement and happiness to be there.

At the end of the workshop we left some time for everyone to ask questions or just to say how he/she felt. Most people shared that they now had a new vision for their lives. One of the newcomers explained that she was expecting to practice yoga, since we also announced the event through our yoga teacher friends. At first the movements confused her. She was astonished when we spoke about Carlos Castaneda, as she had recently begun reading Castaneda’s books. Upon making that connection, between reading the books and this event, she realized that she was not here by chance.

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The theme of the workshop was “In the flow of Power.” That theme was generated by me and Sergey before hearing about the next Path With Heart series theme! During lunch, I heard a practitioner report about a video clip she had seen on YouTube about a mother duck that led her ducklings across a very busy, 6-lane highway. This story hit me. When, at the end of the event, we redefined for ourselves the meaning of personal power, I wrote in my notebook, “Personal power is to lead your little ducks across a busy six lane highway to get to the other side together.” And, why not through the Unknown?

Participants In Studio 5Can you imagine this bird passing through, flying and killing monsters with her ducklings? What can drive this incredible act? After the workshop, I found the clip and shared it on the Being Energy – Bulgaria Facebook page. You can see it here https://www.facebook.com/BeingEnergyBulgaria – A CNN Report.

I even bought a ceramic family of ducks that are in front of the tree house in the forest now, next to where I am writing this blog post to you—a beautiful chain of ducks. And of course it is now my desktop picture.Make_way_for_ducklings_statue

During the preparation of the workshop, I had a very strong feeling that I had to keep certain the intent about the theme and then develop everything around it. It definitely came, but at first I felt my energy was scattered and things didn’t go as smoothly as I would have liked. It is a learning process, and I am grateful to my dear teachers, Aerin, Miles and all the incredible beings of the lineage, whom I feel are supporting me, and all of my comrades from BE Skilled!

Pavel Pavlov

A Path of Love, a Path with Heart

My name is Kale Amber, I come from a lineage of disciplined, strong beings from Costa Rica. My ancestors had a passion for music, which I carry. Music is seen as the intentional use of the vibration and creates with its counterpart silence the perfect vehicle for emotions. Since early childhood, I’ve lived in a world of sublime emotions, enthanced by music, that my mom cultivated in me through her refined taste for classical music.

As a young boy, I spent countless hours disassembling things with the sole purpose of finding out how they worked. I now disassemble more ethereal things, like the person, the egos and the stories which I believe are the source of all emotional pain.

My biggest passion now is to write about the human journey. My focus is the deliberate balance between body, mind and spirit that we can achieve when we learn to master our emotions. I intend to teach the evolution and awakening of awareness through emotional intelligence. My interest in this work centers on dealing with emotional pain and helping other beings to acknowledge and understand pain as the utmost tool for bringing us to the present moment.

I came in contact with Carlos Castaneda’s teachings through his books when I was in high school and in the past ten years have worked more with the teachings through the practice of energy movements. In this work, there was a pivotal moment in my life—I recall it as the beginning of my journey in the path of the warrior. I was in a public library and found the book Magical Passes. I did one pass from the book and from that little gesture, magical changes unfolded that have led me to the present moment. Everything that has happened to me since can be connected backwards as if to a master plan.

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I am grateful for the life I am experiencing, for the human beings, places and experiences in my journey and for the wonderful possibility of waking up to enhanced awareness every day.
In the past five years, Being Energy has been the structural backbone for my journey. Through the regular practice of movements, breathing, recapitulation and silence, I have discovered my true self, my purpose and the joy of being.

My purpose in life is simply to be, but beyond this, I feel an urge to teach fellow travellers how to live easier, more meaningful lives. Being Energy has provided me with a nurturing environment to discover myself, navigate the unavoidable challenges of life and transcend my own boundaries.

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My father passed away a few years ago, while I was attending Being Energy’s Path with Heart classes. The energetic web created by all beings participating in these classes carried me over my grief with beautiful waves of energy, and I could experience the many layers of my father’s death in awe and wonder and also with presence and flow, allowing the pain, too. For this I will always be grateful to my dear teachers Miles and Aerin.

Currently, I am actively teach the daily Being Energy Mind + Body + Spirit classes, teaching Recapitulation and The Ancient Seer’s Code from my home in Florida. I also conduct classes and workshops for groups of practitioners in Costa Rica. Teaching Being Energy opens avenues for me to connect to my true self and to Silent Knowledge, and provides tools for the manifestation and transformation of one’s life in a beautiful organic way that only can be achieved when we learn to love ourselves, our dear families, our partners, our mentors, teachers and friends. From there we can manifest everything else.

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One BE Precept in Real Life: Death as an Advisor

Dear Community,

This is a story of the unexpected. It is about how the tools and practical wisdom from people of Mexico and Mesoamerica, as transmitted and enriched now by Being Energy, have helped me meet difficulties.

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This is a photo of my mother, which I wanted to share with you.

There was a turning point for me back in February 2000. I was headed from my home city of San Luis Potosi to Málaga Spain to get a PhD in education. At the same time, my mother’s health had been deteriorating. She’d suffered from diabetes for 30 years—a disease that is often very aggressive and devastating in its later stages.

What should I do? I felt that going abroad would mean leaving her alone. I had been living with her and caring for things. My brother and sister were each married, and my father was older. So I talked with my brother, sister and father so that we could all decide together what was best. They agreed that it was best for me to go to Spain, and that they would help care for my mom.

So it was decided, and it was also set that I would return to Mexico on a certain date for a few days for reasons connected to my work with the University of San Luis Potosi

Once in Málaga, when the date arrived for my brief return to Mexico, I phoned home to tell my family that I was preparing for the trip. My father answered the call, and gave me the news that my mom’s health had entered a critical state and she had to be hospitalized. I was worried and also somewhat amazed and grateful at how this event was coinciding with the trip that had been planned some time ago. The trip involved my picking up some money for work from the University, which would also allow me to deal with the hospital expenses.

By that time, I had practiced the teachings of Carlos Castaneda for five years. I think I had already redistributed and accumulated enough energy to allow me to realize the truth of what at another time I would have called coincidence. It really was a magical gesture that spirit had given to me, because everything was flowing to favor my being able to travel home to Mexico so that I could say goodbye to my mother.

I recognized then how important it is to live in a purposeful and disciplined way—to make way for our bond with the Spirit. Far from a mythical tale, I now knew that now it was a clear and tangible reality.

IMG_0613I can say without a doubt that it was the gift of the Spirit to be able to be there with my family just, as it turned out, three days before the death of my mother. Being there also allowed me to participate in one of the most important decisions I’ve ever faced.

Shortly after I arrived, the doctor told our family that biological and clinically, my mom and had no chance of improvement, and asked us to decide whether or not to prolong her life artificially. The doctor told us this and then stayed in silence, watching us and waiting for an answer. My siblings and my dad, turned and looked at me, and I had the sense to say, “All we want for my mother is for her not to suffer.”

There can be no worse suffering than to see a loved one suffer, and it feels so powerless to know there is little if anything you can do about it.

In my imagination, I had thought of such a moment with great concern and anguish. However, in the moment of the reality of it, I felt different about death, more clear and grounded, thanks to trying to live the premises of the ancient seers and learning about death as an advisor. I also drew upon a memory of having heard years earlier that with the death of a member of a Chinese family, far from being a drama or tragedy, it is treated as a loving if solemn farewell serene.

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Here I am with two of my great loves: My partner Mary and felines. We are at a Zoo in Puebla, Mexico, where animals are not in cages, but in open spaces. Their philosophy is focused on the care and preservation of species.

To my surprise, I found that I was facing losing my mother with much serenity. Of course I experienced pain and sorrow. But I can say that I was privileged to mourn my mother, in time, place and form of my predilection, and without suppressing my emotions and feelings.

I also know that this was a magical moment because I realized and fully understood why it is important to gather and redistribute our energy to our vital centers. In this case, specially the center for feeling located on the right side of our body, consisting of the liver and gallbladder. I am sure that maintaining my energy levels and awareness was what allowed me to get sober in managing my emotions in this process.

But the story is not over.

A year after my mother’s death, another significant event occurred. One afternoon I was taking a nap, and I had a dream of my mother. She was standing in my living room—clearly there—and without words, she gestured and pointed to the right, where my sister was sitting on a chair. My mother wore an expression of concern and sadness.

I woke up startled by the vividness of the dream. No sooner had I finished waking up, than the phone rang. A lady called me to tell me that my sister and her husband had had an accident on the road. The vehicle they were in had crashed against a rock wall on a curved slope.

My sister came away from the crash with severe injuries and blows to her head. I’m still impressed by the way my mother—or the image of my mother—told me of the accident in the dream, almost at the same moment that it happened.

This event with my sister left me with more questions than answers. One of these questions is: Why did I choose this story to share?

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I have no doubt that real love is the one that is offered unconditionally. I have always been convinced that dolphins are magical beings, that show us how to be generous and give our affection. This photo is taken in Riviera Maya.

Thank you very much for reading my story,
Javier Guerra Ruiz – Esparza

P.S.  I’ve included pictures here of being with animals because they represent moments of great happiness. Since I was a child, I always wanted to be able to connect with and touch these creatures, and being able to be with them is a dream come true. Such a blessing. It’s something I pursued after my mother died—her death inspired me to go for my dreams and follow deep desires for connection and love.

In daily life awareness, we may consider pain and happiness as contrasting and contradictory feelings. However, from a higher state of consciousness, I appreciate pain and happiness as part of a same process, as Octavio Paz said, “The darker the night, the closer the dawn.”

One Dream Takes the Stage as Another Ends: The Act of Being Energy

Hello, everyone! I am Elizabeth Carrillo. I live in Mexico City, I am a Being Energy teacher, and I work in the theater. I am living a dream that is unfolding.

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I studied Drama, Literature and Acting in the National Autonomous University of Mexico (UNAM). After my graduation, some fellow students and I formed an experimental theater group. Our main goal with the group was self-knowledge and the exploration of awareness as applied to dramatic characters to make a scene vibrant.

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For years, we performed psycho-physical exercises and explored different acting styles. The method closest to our hearts, on account of having studied under teachers from the old USSR, was the one implemented by the actor and stage director Mikhail Chekhov (the newphew of the famous writer Anton Chekhov).

Chekhov was a man who suffered from deep depressions. It wasn’t until he came in contact with Indian philosophy, anthroposophy and eurythmy (expressive movement or dances aimed at transforming sound and color into motion, promoted by Rudolf Steiner), that his mood began to greatly improve. Eurythmy dances became an important part of the development of Chekhov’s acting method. He used to say that every actor should feel the inner life of the character and delve into his or her psychological states. Technique must be mastered, practiced and developed. He also placed a great deal of importance on physical training, so that the energy of the body could bring fluidity to actions. This energetic dynamism originates from within, and it should be congruous and integrated with external energy.

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We also read and researched the works of different theorists and methods that shared a similar purpose: evolution of the human being at the level of awareness and energy. Carlos Castaneda was among them. I remember that, during Castaneda workshops, when self-importance and reducing oneself to nothing was discussed, it was a very strong blow to my artistic and personal ego. I suppose the same thing happened to my companions from the actors’ group.

At the beginning, it was really hard for us to tell if we were on the right path. However, as we kept working on ourselves and practicing Energy movements for preparing our work on stage we realized that answers come each time we intended them from our humbleness and impeccability—toward ourselves and to others.

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For years, we have offered different performances that show our explorations as actors and the progress of our self-knowledge. The scenes that stem from these explorations are presented to small audiences who, before the performance, share with the actors the energetic warm-up, so that they can be more receptive to the sensations, emotions, ideas and feelings that their Energy bodies will receive. These scenes may be drawn from things such as a heartbeat or the fire in the Earth’s core. They are usually done with percussion, string, wind or metal instruments as accompaniment, and also with smells that make the energetic magic blossom in the theatre of life.

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Today, this group that formed twenty years ago out of our desire to enhance awareness and become better human beings is getting ready to end. We thank the place that has sheltered us all this time, and also our benefactor, the owner of that Big White Elephant. This ending will be a departure. The departure will be formalized by dreaming the stories that intertwined their energetic lines and thanking infinity for allowing us to corroborate the Energy of the Energy Body, realize a dream of our making, and keep our purpose of personal and creative learning.

Being Energy was there with my work in the theater, and I have implemented Being Energy exercises in acting workshops for professionals, because they are excellent both as a warm-up before stepping on stage and to reactivate the body and our Energy during the work process. These exercises keep us in the “here and now” that the scenes require.

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I also teach Being Energy movements during summer courses to kids between 6 and 12 years old; and also to teenagers, adults and seniors to help them bring dynamism to their bodies and their lives in a more harmonious way. I have also taught Being Energy movements in schools, mostly for junior high and high school students, and in formal acting lessons. I do this especially when we work with aspects of the tangible and intangible heritage of Mexico—like pre-Hispanic legends—to help create awareness of the importance of keeping, knowing and conserving the cultural heritage of Mexico, including its people.

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Thank you for allowing me to share this theater Dream which is being Dreamed in reality.

With Affection,

Elizabeth Carrillo